Back into Mental hospital

I would say this blog is pretty not much like the others as i grew tired of myself at this moment. I can't remember how many times i have pressed 'delete' button to restart my whole blog again. It was countless. I would admit that i have grew pretty afraid of the society that i have changed totally.

On 14 of February 2017, i was admitted to Institute of Mental Health located in Buangkok Green & was in there for 7 days 6 nights talking to the nurses & doctors practically everyday. They questioned lots of questions like how & why i came back. The reason is confidential - therefore, won't be released here. I'm just gonna make it short. It was terrifying. When i was in there, i saw the other side of me. I felt completely remorse. I couldn't find my true self. I felt lost - in fact i was totally lost in my path that i can't back up.

I have no idea how many times i have cried hidden away from everyone while i'm inside. I wasn't myself. I was totally out of focused that i wanted to avoid everyone even my own parents. I hated myself. I hated myself to the point that i told the doctors about my suicide plan while i'm in there.

I'm sorry. I can't continue. It's too painful.