Don't Accuse Me
before anyone bombards me with questions in regards of the photos i've used, yes, they're all overdued. i don't take photos UNLESS i find that it's something i should 😕. whilst i'm typing this, something just came on my mind and i've felt that i should say it here since it bothers me much 🤷. last 4 months ago, i landed onto a full-time job after much consideration (without my parent's approval of course ; though they knew that i switch jobs). and during 4 months of that periods, i've held so much thoughts, so much regrets and etc. but what pisses me off is that, despite my decisions, i was being labelled as "arrogant", "money-lover", "shows-off" and etc (not going to mention who). it's something that i wasn't happy about it because i was being accused as an arrogant. just because i've changed jobs (from part-timer to a full-timer), that doesn't meant that my income has 100% changed.
my income doesn't completely stays at the level of $10k. i barely hold enough $$ and struggles to pay my own debts. it's something that EVERY adults should faced. and despite that the fact i was going to step into adulthood and leaving my adolescent life, i was and have loads of responsibilities. and that doesn't changed the fact that having a full-time job, my pay is higher and having lots of savinga ; no. yes, being 17, people assume that my school, my phone and transportations and daily pockets money are being monitered or given by my parents, 100%. no. everything is all done by me. i paid my own debts, i paid my own bills and basically what i owned are purchase by me. my parents stop supporting me when i was 15 ; though they supported on basic stuffs like foods.
those Balenciagas i owned, which cost me over $600+ for one pair, i saved those huge amount to buy those pairs with the money that i have worked for. it wasn't easy. my life isn't easy. i tried to keep my life as private as i could and i tried not to make my social life as arrogant as possible. just because the fact that i owned Balenciagas shoes, doesn't meant i was purely arrogant and doesn't know my "place". i know mine. i know how it felt to lived as a poor family that rely on people's debt last 2 years which we finally paid everything (God bless us). i don't share my struggles with other people because your mouths doesn't keep still. what we said ; you would twist the whole story and make us as the bad guy. that is why you rarely see the TRUE life of mine with my parents. what you see in my social medias are just 25% of it. the remaining 75% are purely private.
just because i kept quiet and rarely shares my private life, doesn't 100% complete meant that i was and purely arrogant. i am a human too, i do have feelings and i know where, when to stop saying about my life. just because i rarely post or even mention about my life, that doesn't meant that i want to share or even disclose it, i have my reasons why i barely shared and i hope everyone respect that.
you know who you are. so stop being a dickhead/dumbass/bitch and busybody about my life. my life isn't interesting or entertaining.