10 basic questions and answers
i've to re-do this questions and answers that i've done in the past which i have it deleted because i was young and fucking dumb. so here, i've compiled a whole list of questions that i have received and it was a long requested thingy which i was supposed to do it on my instagram story but i'm too lazy to answer them so here, i'll do it and shut off those fucking rumors. so bear with me because all of my answers is going to be sarcastic. that is if you can handle all of my direct answers.
question 1 : what is your full name?
my full name is Siti Khadijah. but you can just call me Kha.
question 2 : what year did you were born and where are you from?
i was born in the year of 2001, so by international year, i would be 18. but if by lunar calendar, i would be 19. i'm from small little dot in the map, Singapore.
question 3 : why did you left school? don't you miss school? when will you get back to school?
this question is something that i wished i could/would not answer because it's a very sensitive topic for me in the past but for now, i don't give a fuck. say what you wanna say, you may knew me from online but you did not know me back in the past. so to answer this question, the reason why i left school is because i have an anxiety issues, back then my depression was mild and it's not worst than now, i remembered i kept crying because i refused to go to school and school for me is like a hell. and because i kept missing school, i told my mother that i want to leave school, i want to quit. so i did. i left school and i did not complete my secondary 2 to 5. i left school when i was 14.
do i miss school? nope. i used to miss school. i used to remember how school is like for me, but when i think back, i don't need school. i may not complete my studies, however, i do have some regrets that if i'm able to stay in school and complete my studies, it'll be fine, but nope. i'm a dropout student and there's lots of new adult experiences i've experienced 4 years back. i started working at the age of 14 and i've collected some amount in my CPF, which is a good thing because in the future, that money could be use for me to get a house (that if i'm still alive).
currently, i'm aiming to get O'level cert which is very tough for me because i've missed 4 years of studies so i have to get back in track but doing revisions and attending private studies which cost me about $1-$1.5k, that amount has been paid out FULLY by using my own salary which i'm struggling to pay by bit, but it's tolerable. but i've to push my O's next year or another year because to register for private is not that cheap because one subject cost about $300 and i'm taking about 5 subjects. that, of course, i have to figure out how because i'm not entirely sure if'm able to complete my studies when there's so many obstacle.
question 4 : are you in relationship? how many relationship you've had in the past? would you be open to get attached with same-sex, opposite and trans?
i don't know why you guys like to know about my relationship *laughs*. but it's okay, cause this was the most requested question so i'll shall answer it. currently, i'm not, i'm single. i've had 5 relationships in the past.
1st relationship was with my ex-friend, M, with whom i've been with for a year and half. and we broke off because we have so much disputes and also so much quarrels so we chose to broke off. and i've heard that she's in relationship, so i wish her the best!
2nd relationship was with a guy called, S. it was just a few weeks? i'm not sure if you called it a relationship but we broke off because i came to know that he's engaged so i chose not to be with him because i do not want to ruin people's engagement and marriage. i'm not a home-wrecker. i respect ladies decision and i know how ladies would feel if they knew that their other half cheated on the,. it's fucking painful.
3rd relationship was with a guy called, A. this relationship, is what made me lose my trust in loved, affection. well, before i say the negative side, let me say the positive side of him. well, he's nice, he's kind and caring but there's one thing that he refused to change, which is he refused to work. i know i seemed look like i'm the "bad guy" but i'm stating the fact. he's 9 years older than me. he lost his job, i mean, he was fired because of some issues which i think that caused the problem? so i'm not sure if i should called it as lazy, or just being pain lazy. but what caused of us broken up is that, i came to know that he fucked his ex-girlfriend in a hotel room when WE WERE STILL TOGETHER. he refused to pick up my call, answer my text for 2 fucking weeks and i came to know that he's just... evil. it broke my heart knowing that he does it behind my back because of what, HE'S DEPRESSED. i'm not saying that his depression is fake or made-up but using the excused of being depressed, is not fucking valid. if you were depressed, why would you have the fucking energy to fuck someone? all of my depressed friends which i've make with in a depressed community group, all of them who were depressed, would just lay in bed, doing nothing, just like how i would do, when i'm down. but of course, i can't purely blame him because i feel that it's my fault for not showing care or attention to him. so i decided to break off with him. i lost contact with him and yeah.
4th relationship was just a fling. hmmm... well her name is Y. she's kind, care-free, loving. but i can't be with her. i doubt she'll be able to handle my shit, i chose to broke off with her. but of course, i wish her the best.
5th relationship was with a girl called, K. she was my friend back in primary school and we just got "click". however, she's in relationship with a guy so it's complicated situation but we broke off (sort of) because of some issues.
i'm open to get attached with someone, be it, same-sex, opposite or trans. i don't care about gender. i care about their kind souls. so if you're kind, then hit me up! (that is if someone would date me, but i doubt no one would).
question 5 : what are you diagnosed with?
i was diagnosed with MDD, followed up with Social Anxiety, followed by Insomnia. you may search these up, what are they and learn them.
question 6 : what are your dreams? what are your goals?
my dreams? hmm.. i don't know. i've never thought of it yet, in fact, i don't. i refused to because i don't want to put my expectations to high. my goals, is that, i wish to lived far from here, adapt to a style, probably, mountains or what sort and lived like those ancient China or Korea. be free from toxic society.
question 7 : would you be open for interviews if a media channel would called you up related to mental health?
i'm open for that, however, if possible that i'm well-prepared and some to guide me with the questions asked as i have fears with open space and fears with crowded places because of my anxiety attack and also i'm afraid if the questions would triggers me, but of course, i'm open for any medias to ask me for interviews. but that's if it's possible, but i doubt i would have :).
question 8 : what is your dream job?
to be a writer, a humble book writer. i loved to write stories in regards to fantasy, ancient related, mental health related. i wish i could be a writer. i loved to use/put my imagination into something that i could make it to reality.
question 9 : what if you are a billionaire, what would you do with the money?
i would put it to a good use. instead of wasting it to buy "not so important stuffs", i would probably use it for my parents and i to travel around the world and making sure that we have hit our travel bucket list, buy a landed house property, a car and also enjoying the buffet that we've hoped to go and also some of it to the charity and also send goods for the needy children in Africa and other countries that are in poverty.
question 10 : would you loved to be famous? and why?\
i would loved to be famous, not because i want to be famous in regards of looks or my social medias. i would loved to be famous because of my works.my works for books and also for the mental health community. i don't look for fame. because being in the spotlight is just... ugh...
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so that'll be all for now. i'll do the next Q&A next post!
thank you for reading. \
@2801km (instagram)
love,
Kha
question 1 : what is your full name?
my full name is Siti Khadijah. but you can just call me Kha.
question 2 : what year did you were born and where are you from?
i was born in the year of 2001, so by international year, i would be 18. but if by lunar calendar, i would be 19. i'm from small little dot in the map, Singapore.
question 3 : why did you left school? don't you miss school? when will you get back to school?
this question is something that i wished i could/would not answer because it's a very sensitive topic for me in the past but for now, i don't give a fuck. say what you wanna say, you may knew me from online but you did not know me back in the past. so to answer this question, the reason why i left school is because i have an anxiety issues, back then my depression was mild and it's not worst than now, i remembered i kept crying because i refused to go to school and school for me is like a hell. and because i kept missing school, i told my mother that i want to leave school, i want to quit. so i did. i left school and i did not complete my secondary 2 to 5. i left school when i was 14.
do i miss school? nope. i used to miss school. i used to remember how school is like for me, but when i think back, i don't need school. i may not complete my studies, however, i do have some regrets that if i'm able to stay in school and complete my studies, it'll be fine, but nope. i'm a dropout student and there's lots of new adult experiences i've experienced 4 years back. i started working at the age of 14 and i've collected some amount in my CPF, which is a good thing because in the future, that money could be use for me to get a house (that if i'm still alive).
currently, i'm aiming to get O'level cert which is very tough for me because i've missed 4 years of studies so i have to get back in track but doing revisions and attending private studies which cost me about $1-$1.5k, that amount has been paid out FULLY by using my own salary which i'm struggling to pay by bit, but it's tolerable. but i've to push my O's next year or another year because to register for private is not that cheap because one subject cost about $300 and i'm taking about 5 subjects. that, of course, i have to figure out how because i'm not entirely sure if'm able to complete my studies when there's so many obstacle.
question 4 : are you in relationship? how many relationship you've had in the past? would you be open to get attached with same-sex, opposite and trans?
i don't know why you guys like to know about my relationship *laughs*. but it's okay, cause this was the most requested question so i'll shall answer it. currently, i'm not, i'm single. i've had 5 relationships in the past.
1st relationship was with my ex-friend, M, with whom i've been with for a year and half. and we broke off because we have so much disputes and also so much quarrels so we chose to broke off. and i've heard that she's in relationship, so i wish her the best!
2nd relationship was with a guy called, S. it was just a few weeks? i'm not sure if you called it a relationship but we broke off because i came to know that he's engaged so i chose not to be with him because i do not want to ruin people's engagement and marriage. i'm not a home-wrecker. i respect ladies decision and i know how ladies would feel if they knew that their other half cheated on the,. it's fucking painful.
3rd relationship was with a guy called, A. this relationship, is what made me lose my trust in loved, affection. well, before i say the negative side, let me say the positive side of him. well, he's nice, he's kind and caring but there's one thing that he refused to change, which is he refused to work. i know i seemed look like i'm the "bad guy" but i'm stating the fact. he's 9 years older than me. he lost his job, i mean, he was fired because of some issues which i think that caused the problem? so i'm not sure if i should called it as lazy, or just being pain lazy. but what caused of us broken up is that, i came to know that he fucked his ex-girlfriend in a hotel room when WE WERE STILL TOGETHER. he refused to pick up my call, answer my text for 2 fucking weeks and i came to know that he's just... evil. it broke my heart knowing that he does it behind my back because of what, HE'S DEPRESSED. i'm not saying that his depression is fake or made-up but using the excused of being depressed, is not fucking valid. if you were depressed, why would you have the fucking energy to fuck someone? all of my depressed friends which i've make with in a depressed community group, all of them who were depressed, would just lay in bed, doing nothing, just like how i would do, when i'm down. but of course, i can't purely blame him because i feel that it's my fault for not showing care or attention to him. so i decided to break off with him. i lost contact with him and yeah.
4th relationship was just a fling. hmmm... well her name is Y. she's kind, care-free, loving. but i can't be with her. i doubt she'll be able to handle my shit, i chose to broke off with her. but of course, i wish her the best.
5th relationship was with a girl called, K. she was my friend back in primary school and we just got "click". however, she's in relationship with a guy so it's complicated situation but we broke off (sort of) because of some issues.
i'm open to get attached with someone, be it, same-sex, opposite or trans. i don't care about gender. i care about their kind souls. so if you're kind, then hit me up! (that is if someone would date me, but i doubt no one would).
question 5 : what are you diagnosed with?
i was diagnosed with MDD, followed up with Social Anxiety, followed by Insomnia. you may search these up, what are they and learn them.
question 6 : what are your dreams? what are your goals?
my dreams? hmm.. i don't know. i've never thought of it yet, in fact, i don't. i refused to because i don't want to put my expectations to high. my goals, is that, i wish to lived far from here, adapt to a style, probably, mountains or what sort and lived like those ancient China or Korea. be free from toxic society.
question 7 : would you be open for interviews if a media channel would called you up related to mental health?
i'm open for that, however, if possible that i'm well-prepared and some to guide me with the questions asked as i have fears with open space and fears with crowded places because of my anxiety attack and also i'm afraid if the questions would triggers me, but of course, i'm open for any medias to ask me for interviews. but that's if it's possible, but i doubt i would have :).
question 8 : what is your dream job?
to be a writer, a humble book writer. i loved to write stories in regards to fantasy, ancient related, mental health related. i wish i could be a writer. i loved to use/put my imagination into something that i could make it to reality.
question 9 : what if you are a billionaire, what would you do with the money?
i would put it to a good use. instead of wasting it to buy "not so important stuffs", i would probably use it for my parents and i to travel around the world and making sure that we have hit our travel bucket list, buy a landed house property, a car and also enjoying the buffet that we've hoped to go and also some of it to the charity and also send goods for the needy children in Africa and other countries that are in poverty.
question 10 : would you loved to be famous? and why?\
i would loved to be famous, not because i want to be famous in regards of looks or my social medias. i would loved to be famous because of my works.my works for books and also for the mental health community. i don't look for fame. because being in the spotlight is just... ugh...
-
so that'll be all for now. i'll do the next Q&A next post!
thank you for reading. \
@2801km (instagram)
love,
Kha