i have phobias...
few days back, whilst in class, my teacher asked me what is my phobias as we were doing "phobias" projects and we were required to share our phobias because we will discuss it on the slides infront of all of the class ranks with professors. all of my friend listed that they have 2 phobias and most are common cases and some are not that common but can be understandable. however, when it's my turn to share, i felt too much pressure because i do not only have 1 phobia, i have...
i've decided not to hide but to share my phobias with all of you and how it started and why. though i can be frank and say that most of my phobias occur when i'm in a situation where i'm helpless and that fear became my phobia, and yes, i'm still fighting with it and battling with it like how a normal human be.
1st phobia is agoraphobia. what is agoraphobia? agoraphobia is a phobia of crowded places, be it in a public wet market, supermarket, concerts and busy streets. many view or sees this as the worst phobia and they thought that we will just hide ourselves from the public, but for me, it's a different case. i could still go out and socialize like a normal person, however, the fear started to kick in when something triggers me, well, what triggers me to this phobia is when someone raised their voice in public, or yell, or scream, that will triggers me to the point i would start shaking so badly and i feel the world is spinning. and because my occupation requires me to be in public quite often, i had to swallow 2 anxiety pills to get me moving forward and listening to my music helps me quite a lot.
2nd phobia is cherophobia. what is cherophobia? cherophobia is a phobia of being happy. sounds ironic, isn't it? why would i fear of being happy? for me, i used to believe that happiness brings fun, brings good luck. however, after multiple situations and also multiple situation that puts me to a worst side, i stop believing in true happiness. i meant, for me what is happiness? how do you know that it's true or real happiness? people say that happiness is what brought people together, but for me, it does not brings people together but brings everyone to the point that it isn't great. i really don't know how to explain this but i'm just afraid of happiness.
3rd phobia is coulrophobia, if you heard of this, you would know what i'm trying to say. i have this fear of clowns when a friend of mine scares me with this clown mask and would push me into one corner and would just keep haunting me. it seems like stupid act but back then, i was young, shy or quiet. i refused to say no or go away fearing that i would grow up with no friends and also getting bullied in school by my friends. so i let them haunt me with that mask and would often picks me in school and would made me hide in the toilet for hours and i had to wait for them to go away before i ran back home. i don't know why or how it made me fear of clowns or how their actions would cause me to fear of clowns. everyday i wonder why. i chose to watch IT the movie and it really freaks me out especially with that bulbous head and sinister smile.
4th phobia is ophidiopobia. this phobia is sort of common if you have fear of snakes. for me, it doesn't sound so serious but it can be serious at times. i'm afraid of snakes because it's threatening. the scales, the body, the eyes, the tongue. oh god, i can't. even with pictures or videos, it scares the freak out of me. i would panic, my heart starts ventilating and i would pass out if i don't get away from it.
5th phobia is trypophobia. this phobia is pretty common because we all hate this. it's self explaination.
6th phobia is ailurophobia. many may not know what is this but this phobia is typical fear of cats. yes, my huge fear. i hate being or see cats. i would panic if i saw one. i used to own and loved cats but suddenly, it grew into fear. it started after i was cured from black magic that is done by my mother's friend. from there, i started to have fear of cats and if i were to be in your house, be prepared to see me jumping from one furniture to another. i can't stand with cats sounds or fur or whatsoever.
7th phobia is my fear of my own body. i feared with how my body is not perfect, how my body looks huge, ugly or not perfect in certain portions. my shoulder, my face, my chin, my body, my legs. my thighs. people often give their solution of plastic surgery, however for me, plastic surgery is NEVER the solution. it cost you a fortune and not only it does gives you a "non-perfect" look and instead it destroys you. therefore, i've been trying my best to make my body look perfect.
i'm not sure if my phobias make sense but to me, these are my top 7 phobias. though i got some things under controlled but still, my phobias is still there and yet, i won't get over it. i haven't discuss this with my therapist but i do mention that things took differently. i do hope so that i'm able to get my phobias worked out but fear of snakes and clowns, that will never be cured. it scares me so much to the point my whole body gave up.
hehe....
what are your phobias?
x
i've decided not to hide but to share my phobias with all of you and how it started and why. though i can be frank and say that most of my phobias occur when i'm in a situation where i'm helpless and that fear became my phobia, and yes, i'm still fighting with it and battling with it like how a normal human be.
1st phobia is agoraphobia. what is agoraphobia? agoraphobia is a phobia of crowded places, be it in a public wet market, supermarket, concerts and busy streets. many view or sees this as the worst phobia and they thought that we will just hide ourselves from the public, but for me, it's a different case. i could still go out and socialize like a normal person, however, the fear started to kick in when something triggers me, well, what triggers me to this phobia is when someone raised their voice in public, or yell, or scream, that will triggers me to the point i would start shaking so badly and i feel the world is spinning. and because my occupation requires me to be in public quite often, i had to swallow 2 anxiety pills to get me moving forward and listening to my music helps me quite a lot.
2nd phobia is cherophobia. what is cherophobia? cherophobia is a phobia of being happy. sounds ironic, isn't it? why would i fear of being happy? for me, i used to believe that happiness brings fun, brings good luck. however, after multiple situations and also multiple situation that puts me to a worst side, i stop believing in true happiness. i meant, for me what is happiness? how do you know that it's true or real happiness? people say that happiness is what brought people together, but for me, it does not brings people together but brings everyone to the point that it isn't great. i really don't know how to explain this but i'm just afraid of happiness.
3rd phobia is coulrophobia, if you heard of this, you would know what i'm trying to say. i have this fear of clowns when a friend of mine scares me with this clown mask and would push me into one corner and would just keep haunting me. it seems like stupid act but back then, i was young, shy or quiet. i refused to say no or go away fearing that i would grow up with no friends and also getting bullied in school by my friends. so i let them haunt me with that mask and would often picks me in school and would made me hide in the toilet for hours and i had to wait for them to go away before i ran back home. i don't know why or how it made me fear of clowns or how their actions would cause me to fear of clowns. everyday i wonder why. i chose to watch IT the movie and it really freaks me out especially with that bulbous head and sinister smile.
4th phobia is ophidiopobia. this phobia is sort of common if you have fear of snakes. for me, it doesn't sound so serious but it can be serious at times. i'm afraid of snakes because it's threatening. the scales, the body, the eyes, the tongue. oh god, i can't. even with pictures or videos, it scares the freak out of me. i would panic, my heart starts ventilating and i would pass out if i don't get away from it.
5th phobia is trypophobia. this phobia is pretty common because we all hate this. it's self explaination.
6th phobia is ailurophobia. many may not know what is this but this phobia is typical fear of cats. yes, my huge fear. i hate being or see cats. i would panic if i saw one. i used to own and loved cats but suddenly, it grew into fear. it started after i was cured from black magic that is done by my mother's friend. from there, i started to have fear of cats and if i were to be in your house, be prepared to see me jumping from one furniture to another. i can't stand with cats sounds or fur or whatsoever.
7th phobia is my fear of my own body. i feared with how my body is not perfect, how my body looks huge, ugly or not perfect in certain portions. my shoulder, my face, my chin, my body, my legs. my thighs. people often give their solution of plastic surgery, however for me, plastic surgery is NEVER the solution. it cost you a fortune and not only it does gives you a "non-perfect" look and instead it destroys you. therefore, i've been trying my best to make my body look perfect.
i'm not sure if my phobias make sense but to me, these are my top 7 phobias. though i got some things under controlled but still, my phobias is still there and yet, i won't get over it. i haven't discuss this with my therapist but i do mention that things took differently. i do hope so that i'm able to get my phobias worked out but fear of snakes and clowns, that will never be cured. it scares me so much to the point my whole body gave up.
hehe....
what are your phobias?
x