Let's Get Real
my mind is extremely occupied with a lot of things. negative, i've got to admit. i can say that things is slowly getting better, slowly improving. my dad finally got a job and it was 2hr job that he get paid $500. i don't know if i should be happy or glad that he has a job after being unemployed for nearly 1year+. i can say that january has been a month that really teaches me a lot about life. about my decision as an adult. the fact that i'm one step closer to be 20, i can do a small cheer that hey, i'm 20.
i'm trying my hardest best to do something that i wanted to do as an adult. i wanted to be more than that. i wanted to be more than what i am right now. i'm striving for positivity, to be someone's role model. i was approached by a lovely young lady who have a bad moment yesterday which i would not elaborate because it's a trust given between both of us. however, i'm here to state my opinion and what i get as a person that was approached by someone who has a bad days and wanted me.
i thank you for approaching to me, asking for advice and wanting to let your inner feelings out. it's NEVER wrong or ashamed that you ask me for help because i'm proud and glad that i'm an option. reaching out for help, asking for help, reaching out to me, it's okay. you're not ashamed. you're not being a useless and someone that wasn't worth to looked at or someone that doesn't deserve an explanation or an earful moment. i'm happy to help.
reaching out to me, doesn't mean that your problem will be 100% solved. remember, i'm not a problem solver. i am someone that you can lean onto, talk to and advice. not someone who will solve the problem for you.
when she approached me thru Instagram DM, she was feeling extremely down. feeling overwhelmed, of course, being me, i won't approach with negative behaviour, instead i approach with just me being me. giving out advices was something that people said that i'm good at. when she said, how? how can i be like you? tough, strong?
that question... hit me so hard. just like she said, how can she be like me? how?
i was in a position where i was extremely down, weak and vulnerable. i was given with no help for recovery. everyone gave me up including my parents. when i down, when i stopped trying, the people that gave me hope is my psychologist, Doctor T. she's the first psychologist that i'm comfortable with. someone that gave me hope, little hope. but again. i'm at a losing point. i seek out for help, i cried for help, not even one soul ever approach me and reach out their hand and said, let's do this together. nobody. and because of that, i've changed. i'm no longer that person who would just give in to everyone. i'm no longer that person who would be the last option to get chosen for the things that they refused to do.
i have feelings too. i'm a human. hence, i should have my own opinion for the things that i want to do and the choice. that's when i made the decision to put myself above everyone else. i chose to be arrogant and lack of empathy towards others. because when i was at the point, nobody cried for me. nobody said that they're by my side. nobody did. so if they cried, they're in pain. i won't laugh. i wouldn't said, "karma" or "great, now you feel how i feel."
no, i won't say that. instead, i lend a hand but i let you figure out how you should fix it. i could only give advice but more than that, sorry. you've come to the wrong person. don't make your problem become a burden to mine. i would be happy and willing to let you tell me how you feel and why you need my advise but if more than that, i'm sorry. i'm not that person that you chose for.
want me to sit with you and listen to you, i'm good. want me to give you a hug and pat on your back for doing good, okay, i could. that's how far i can be helpful.
and to the lady that i'm talking to yesterday,
You are awesome, a fine young lady that has lots of good ordeals happening. What you are going through is valid. You'll be okay. Remember, everything have a reasons. You are being tested and you prove to me that you are strong and you can do it. I'm here for you, okay? So don't forget and don't give up. Sending lots of love for you. - 2801km.
i'm trying my hardest best to do something that i wanted to do as an adult. i wanted to be more than that. i wanted to be more than what i am right now. i'm striving for positivity, to be someone's role model. i was approached by a lovely young lady who have a bad moment yesterday which i would not elaborate because it's a trust given between both of us. however, i'm here to state my opinion and what i get as a person that was approached by someone who has a bad days and wanted me.
i thank you for approaching to me, asking for advice and wanting to let your inner feelings out. it's NEVER wrong or ashamed that you ask me for help because i'm proud and glad that i'm an option. reaching out for help, asking for help, reaching out to me, it's okay. you're not ashamed. you're not being a useless and someone that wasn't worth to looked at or someone that doesn't deserve an explanation or an earful moment. i'm happy to help.
reaching out to me, doesn't mean that your problem will be 100% solved. remember, i'm not a problem solver. i am someone that you can lean onto, talk to and advice. not someone who will solve the problem for you.
when she approached me thru Instagram DM, she was feeling extremely down. feeling overwhelmed, of course, being me, i won't approach with negative behaviour, instead i approach with just me being me. giving out advices was something that people said that i'm good at. when she said, how? how can i be like you? tough, strong?
that question... hit me so hard. just like she said, how can she be like me? how?
i was in a position where i was extremely down, weak and vulnerable. i was given with no help for recovery. everyone gave me up including my parents. when i down, when i stopped trying, the people that gave me hope is my psychologist, Doctor T. she's the first psychologist that i'm comfortable with. someone that gave me hope, little hope. but again. i'm at a losing point. i seek out for help, i cried for help, not even one soul ever approach me and reach out their hand and said, let's do this together. nobody. and because of that, i've changed. i'm no longer that person who would just give in to everyone. i'm no longer that person who would be the last option to get chosen for the things that they refused to do.
i have feelings too. i'm a human. hence, i should have my own opinion for the things that i want to do and the choice. that's when i made the decision to put myself above everyone else. i chose to be arrogant and lack of empathy towards others. because when i was at the point, nobody cried for me. nobody said that they're by my side. nobody did. so if they cried, they're in pain. i won't laugh. i wouldn't said, "karma" or "great, now you feel how i feel."
no, i won't say that. instead, i lend a hand but i let you figure out how you should fix it. i could only give advice but more than that, sorry. you've come to the wrong person. don't make your problem become a burden to mine. i would be happy and willing to let you tell me how you feel and why you need my advise but if more than that, i'm sorry. i'm not that person that you chose for.
want me to sit with you and listen to you, i'm good. want me to give you a hug and pat on your back for doing good, okay, i could. that's how far i can be helpful.
and to the lady that i'm talking to yesterday,
You are awesome, a fine young lady that has lots of good ordeals happening. What you are going through is valid. You'll be okay. Remember, everything have a reasons. You are being tested and you prove to me that you are strong and you can do it. I'm here for you, okay? So don't forget and don't give up. Sending lots of love for you. - 2801km.