Losing Hope? Losing Sensibility?

Well.... I just don't believe in relationship anymore. In fact, what is relationship? Liking someone is one thing. Confession is one thing. So I confessed to a guy whom I liked, get rejected of course but well? I know and I've always known but I just don't know why I did. Ha. Irony isn't it. 

How do people fall in love? I don't get it. I can't put myself in a love situation but then I want to be in a relationship. To get married. To have kids. But I can't. I'm not like that girl. I've always said that I go with the flow but then I just stuck in abyss. 

I guess this is the revelation of me rejecting people and this is the karma of me hiding in the hut, avoiding every circumstances and doesn't know where to begin.