Spontaneous

It's been a long while since my last blog post. I've been hesitant to post because I don't have any energy to even function or even do things right now. I have no idea if meds work or not because I just don't see any. More I feel like, what is even happening, y'know. 

Don't ever get me started with employment. Who would want to employ a freak like me, right 😅? That is enough said. Tired of multiple job applications. Tired of trying. Everything result in failure. Everything. 

Do you giys believe in different dimension/reality? I do. There's tons of different planets and a copy of might be there. And if I got the chance to meet my own self at a different dimension/reality, I' would. 

Just would like to say that I prayed that my other dimension/reality self is lot of happier than what I'm feeling like right now. I hope that my other dimension/reality self is living the best life and free from that extreme emotional pain that I'm having right now. Hopeless. Anger. Frustration. Irritation. And oh, feels like the most fucked up right now. 

Dear other dimension/reality self, please don't be like me. Please have a good life and be happy. Embark on the happiness that you have.