Long While

It's been a while, yeah?

I have lost count since my last post here. Haha. By the way, hi. Let's see which topic I could start to update about myself right now. So many things happened that I don't know where to start. Anyways, in few months time, I'd be 24. I'm a grown woman now. I survived my life, everything, from shit to now. Though life is still a shit but I think, it's improving a bit? Maybe because I see a light. 

I'm not fully recovered. I'm still fighting, and will always be. I'm doing okay, not fine nor relapse happening but I'm doing just okay for now. Maybe because from experience I guess, people wouldn't wanna see you the same. 

Do I still think of suicide? Sometimes.

Do I still think of harming myself? Sometimes. 

Do I still feel insecure of myself? Yes, definitely. To the point I hated how I look. I just don't see the pretty in me, though I want to look perfect. Not like Barbie but just perfect and to my satisfaction. I'm not happy about it.