2025.

The year 2024 presented significant challenges, particularly concerning my career. After taking a course and initially landing a life-changing job that negatively impacted my mental health, I faced job discrimination, three months of unemployment, and four job application rejections within the same field. I wasn't prepared for 2025, which is only two weeks away.

I experienced both gaining and losing friends, finding the latter difficult due to attachment issues. Sucks right? My long-term psychiatrist left to open a private clinic, which I cannot afford due to high costs and lack of insurance coverage. This necessitates finding a new psychiatrist, a prospect that I find uncomfortable and daunting. I feel compelled to take anti-depressants to manage my emotions and avoid negative judgments about my mental health. Despite my 9 years of efforts, I were recently unfairly judged as "dangerous" during a job interview, leaving me feeling misunderstood and hurt.

The company's name is withheld due to its poor reputation among ex-employees. However, I still applied to the said company despite negative reviews from former employees, because, I believed that individual experiences vary, but my own unfair treatment highlights the company's arrogance and ignorance, possibly stemming from its namesake's historical significance.

Mental health awareness in Singapore is inadequate and needs improvement for future generations. Despite existing efforts, understanding remains low. People with mental illness are still being judged and frowned upon. Singapore ranks among the top 100 Asian countries with high suicide rates. (We're 54th, according to data published by CEOWORLD magazine). Regardless, it's still high rate. 

2025 is near but I feel like what it's hopeful for 2025, when my body is here but my soul? Numb and empty.