Disappointed

 You know what's upsetting? The fact that I went for a job interview yesterday to only get criticized over the fact that I have mental illness (major depression, anxiety) and I'm on anti-depressants and I can't land a job because they sees me as "unsafe" around people. Despite the fact that I have a doctor's letter (clearance) that I'm fit to be employed, I was deemed "unfit" by companies. 

I was upset, betrayed and even lost hope in humanity. I wasn't given a chance to prove that I am capable to be employed. And even if I have bad days, I'm okay. I can function properly because I know how to control now. I know the pros and cons if I missed my medication and I try not to. But it seems that people don't see the other side of the story. Just because I'm mentally ill and on medications doesn't mean that I'm "unsafe" to be around people.  

You may say that I'm oversensitive about this. Yes I am. It's not about not being employed or unable to land a job but it's about the things they said that hurts me. Being label as "unsafe around people" just because I'm mentally ill? I'm trying my hardest to be normal, to be okay, to be accepted in this fucked up society and mentality, to be transparent over tiny things but why do people have to be so cruel? 

I'm a human being. And I have feelings too. I'm no longer strong enough to keep up faith in everything. I've tried. I tried.