[updated] ABOUT ME
hello guys, i believe some of you have read my blog since the start when i put the link on my instagram bio? if you have followed me up since then, you can skip this part but for those who are new and wants to know me more, then this post is for you!
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let me start by introducing myself. my name is Skylar but you can just call me Sky. i'm 17 this year and have been blogging since 2016. i pick up the interest of blogging when i watch Xiaxue videos on YouTube and she linked her blog website on one of her videos, so i got inspired by how blogging works after i read through her post. it's actually started briefly around 2013ish but back then, i was really child-like and innocent so i don't really know what i could do to share on my blog since during that period of time, my knowledge on internet and social media was really low in a sense that it was controlled over by my parents.
i started blogging due not for some popularity in any sense but for some fun. i wanted to blog in different ways ; different from others ; instead of blogging for beauty, travel or photography, i blog on mental illness issues. i believed the subject on mental illness was not "properly" taught in school and mental illness has been a subjected as a rare form of case. but majority of people in Singapore do suffer from mental illness yet not all seek help.
i wanted to create an awareness, seek of understanding and also for you to learn that mental illness is important as physical health. which is why my blog existed for a reason. i believed that other Singaporean bloggers blogs on beauty, travel, photograohy, pregnancies, family, life and food but none do really covers the topic of mental health. what i meant was all the bloggers do really covers the topic i stated but not all do really covers the topic of mental health neither they do covers one.
so my blog appears for a reason and that is why my blog do still exist. even though i rarely do update my blog because of my schedule from doing a full-time job and a full-time private student and being a full-time daughter to my parents ; is not an easy task to multi-task.
i don't call myself as mental health advocate because i don't see myself as one even though my blog or i blog about mental health issue, wanting to create an awareness. i mainly want people to view me as a human, a person.
though by this, i am speaking out as due of my own experience with mental health. i was diagnosed with major depressive disorder, personality disorder, social anxiety, panic disorder and insomnia for 5 years now. i wanted to share with you my real story of how i juggled my mental illnesses with work and school + everyday life.
my blog is MORE than what you can imagine. i'm speaking out of experience, my own experience not others. other people who suffer from mental illness like i do have a different reaction and coping skills unlike mine ; though we may suffer from the same illnesses, that doesn't meant that what works for me works for them too!
if you gonna ask me how do i feel? i feel nothing! though at some point of time i do wonder why i can't be like other normal kids who don't suffer from mental illness yet looks so happy and relaxed whilst i had to fight with my inner demons everyday? it's part of how mental illness works. it's tiring but it's worth! it shows/allows me to experience that being an adult is not easy and trusting people is not easy too. i'm not gonna lie, at first i do felt that people gonna look at me weirdly but i don't feel anything. despite whether you are labelled as mental health sufferer that doesn't put you as a different person! both human whether you are mentally ill or not, you are still you.
i'm not gonna be ashamed for being someone who has a mental illness. it's gonna be on you FOREVER. so why do you lie for being the real you, right?
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i am not a certified neither a professional mental health speaker but let me tell you that i have a lot of experiences during my good/worst periods of life and i understand it way better than others do.
my blog shows the real me and i am gonna share it here, with you all, how it feels like.