Let's Brief 2018 together

so 2018 is over, should have done this on 2018 itself but i just wasn't feeling mentally good. so here you go, the memories, the fucked up memories of 2018. i tried to remember as much as i could. sorry, antidepressants made me forget alot of stuffs. 

Brief of all the years : I try not to indicate the dates because that would make a whole lot of a list and makes me find it hard to even relocate every pieces ; as i have said, my memories are fucked up because of the antidepressants.. so what is listed here, is all i could ever remember. 

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January 2018 : a whole new year, new colleagues and fun was there. got my first Herschel bag as a present for my 17th birthday, celebrated my birthday with my close family and it was doing alright. my ex started to wish my birthday which surprisingly made me a little upset because our relationship back then wasn't doing any good and it's not something i could phrase it here and yeah ;(

February 2018 : *i cannot remember anything.* 

March 2018 : my mom's 51st birthday. i realise she's leaving the 50th century and on her way to 60th century. 

April 2018 : started school :')

May 2018 : my dad's 56th birthday and that's when i left my job at working in Bata and missing them so much... 

June 2018 : started my first job at Mark's & Spencer.. first impression, i was okay. but then it started the feeling of frustration. 

July 2018 : my mental health began to deterioriate. i was still forcing myself to go to work, because of the unfinished debts. 

August 2018 :  went back to IMH for the first entire time because i wasn't feeling okay and yeah, my anxiety just fluctuates. 

September 2018 : barely holding on..

October 2018 : still forces myself to go to work despite my reaction of feeling horrible, angry and frustrated. 

November 2018 : went to my first KPOP concert, iKON with my friend. i was doing okay.. 

December 2018 : i wasn't good. i switch my position from full-time to part-time because my presentation at work is not very good, so i switch position and now here i am struggling on my two fucking feet to survive with the last bits of my work pay. 

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so that is how my year has been. i'm sorry if the briefs wasn't accurate. i'm trying my very best to remember as much as i could. so, how's your year have been? 

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