Update 2022

It's been a while, yeah? I've missed you.

A few quick positive updates. I would say I don't have any relapse for now which is good, I believe. Work is fine, I've got good colleagues and environment, the pay is damn good compared to my previous job which fucked me up thanks to my ex-managers and colleagues *roll eyes*. My parents is working, well to have some backup cash since my salary comes at every month and it might not help throughout the month since I'm paying the bills. So far, that's the good side of it.

As for the negative side, I'm still having insomnia and can't have proper sleep nowadays. My brain doesn't stop working endlessly despite working my ass off to stay busy and distracted. The thoughts of wanting to kill myself is there but not strong as before, maybe because I have supportive people around me.

I can honestly say I'm still not good mentally, there's still urges but overall, it's fine, I guess?