How Am I Feeling?

It's a worldwide crisis. Recently, the high rising number of cases of people that is infected with COVID-19. More than 9 people dead. Here, we called it Circuit Breaker instead of lockdown like all countries. All shops are closed, only essential shops are allowed. McDonald had to close their all outlet till May because of number of cases affected within their staffs. Upsetting. I am "jobless" at this moment time of period because of this situation. A lot of people are jobless now because the economy is really down and everyone is affected. 

It gives a huge effect on my mental health. I've had breakdowns, panic attacks because the situation isn't in control, everyday new cases rising up and not being able to meet my family especially my grandparents ; it's scary. 

I'm not afraid to be alone or in fact will be alone. What I'm afraid of is that I'm not being able to see my family and i kept having this bad feeling that things gonna happen. It's scary. 

How'd you guys coping?