A Post that I Never Thought I'll Do

Few days back, I happen to came upon this post on Instagram and the caption really breaks my heart. A post about how she felt overwhelmed especially during this year since a lot of things happened, COVID. It affects the worldwide population. People loses their jobs including myself and it seriously affect people with mental illness. Losing a job is like losing part of our life. Having job is what keep us up afloat. Her post is heartbreaking. 2 days ago, it was her birthday and she has this same thought as I am. Celebrating our birthday is like celebrating our dead self. And also the fact that she lives the other side of the world and I could honestly relate to her pain. For 16 years, she have been struggling with mental illness where else I'm suffering for 7 years (if counts from 2021, itself). 

And I've got to be very honest, I wasn't feeling good for the past 2 months contrary. I was feeling very sad, very down and yet, I'm surviving and I wonder why? I guess it's because the chapter to my life is not the end.