Losing Part of Me

This took me a long while to write and post, hence the ultimate delay. I have no bad excuses to offer as to why but the reason is, I lost my most important person in life, that is my beloved grandfather. He died this year, 14 March 2023 due to stage 4 cancer. 11 days after my mother's birthday. 

The moment I lost him, my whole world shattered, for I was the last person to whisper my final words to him and he's gone. 

I knew that everyone will die eventually but to witness my beloved grandfather, gone before my eyes just heartbreaking. Everything in my life changed after that. I lost him, I lost my job, I lost everything. 

My mental health wasn't good at that point and till today. I have so many things to say but for that, will be on my journal instead.

I miss him. I really do.

All I can say, living is exhausting enough.