I Cannot Describe

it's been long since i have started to update my blog. i may seems like a bad blogger for not updating the blog like i used to. you may say that this is the worst fucked up reason i could give but hey, i'm a human too and i need my own life ; personal space in fact. i have work, school and assignments to do plus am saving up for my education, is not that easy! anyways back to the topic i wanna share. 

yes, i have started to avoid everybody, my friends, my family, my relationships and also my social medias. i'm not that active anymore even though yes i did check onto my account lately but not posting much unless it's just like a random update. lots of things happened and i wasn't happy with myself for the fact that i couldn't take things/stuffs jokingly. i used to say that i should just act it as a joke but as it goes past, i couldn't. i think and react to it negatively and it somehows saddens me to the point i feel that this isn't fucking fair for me. 

i got mad easily, i got upset easily, i got irritated easily. i don't even know if it's because of PMS or even anything.

and now when i think back, i just wanna say that my life is nothing worse than other people who had it worse or even the same as me but all i wanna say is that it's unfair for me and the people who go through the same as i.

it's totally unfair for fuck sake.