They don't understand and they will never will

A depressed girl once ask herself this question, "Why was she worth to lived? Everyone hates her. Everyone always points out her mistakes. Why is she always the target? Why?". Why everyone had so much hate on her? She never disturb you. She never ask you money. She never even do anything to your life so why must you go to her? Everyday she went to school and everything changes. The same feeling of being picked by others, the same feeling of being bullied by others, the same feeling of being chosen to do certain task at school. How can she go through the emotional pain? She was lonely on the road. The cruel and dark road that no one know.

Someone said to her that she will be with her on the road, going through the pain together but to be honest, the girl doesn't feel like she's helping neither she is together on the road with her. All she saw was just herself facing the demon that she has been fighting all by herself. She met a psychologist, and hopes that person will cure her pain, her anxiety, her emotional pain but no. She was wring. The psychologist was a demon - herself. She stopped seeing her. She stopped seeing everyone. She threatened to kill herself. Everything doesn't seems perfect for her. She feels scared. She feels threatened. Threatened by her own demon. She met her psychiatrist but her psychiatrist can only provide a medication for her symptoms. She was alone.

She was stuck at the lonely dark road. She wanted to escape. She wanted to run. She wanted to be free. She wanted to kill the demon so badly. She wonders, "if she kill the demon, it means she'll kill herself too.". She remembered that her demon is part of her now. Nothing can change the cruel fact that the demon is stick to her, it is part of her now. She hates her demon. Her demons makes her lose her friends she met in school before she stopped going, her demons makes her lose her great relationship with her families, her demons makes her lose her friends she met in IMH and her demons is slowly making her lose friends in her school and she can feel that.

She is emotionally tired. She is emotionally in pain. Her head is dizzy. All she could describe the world she is seeing, hell. Everyone around her is slowly leaving her...... Everyone around her is slowly hating on her.... Everyone around her is slowly picking and bullying on her...... She has no one to talk too. She wanted to end the pain so badly. Her heart is so broken. Everyone doesn't believe in her. Anymore. She asked for help, she gave people hints but no help was given. No help came to her. No one.

If she ask help from you, will you help her or ignore her like others? Will you go to her and hug her and said that everything that it is okay? Will you give a handkerchief and wipe her tears? If she wanted to die, will you stop her? I bet no one will because she's a bitch, isn't it? Everyone labelled her the bitch of the ass. She pretend that everything is fine. She pretend that everything will be okay when in fact she doesn't.

And that person is...... ME.