Mental Health Update

It's been a while since my last mental health update, so I figured I should make one. These past few weeks has been extremely hard journey. Losing my job due to COVID, quit my freelance job and now, I'm jobless. Not surprised. Stuck at home for nearly 2 weeks and my life has slowly been downgraded. I spend more time online, doing mental health studies, sharing knowledge and be on my phone doing what I could to not be stress about. 

Send multiple resumes to all different companies and also kinds of jobs that I could do and most have replied but sadly, location is way too far from where I stay. I got to rejected few of those even though the pay was okay. Went interview about a week ago and I guess, I won't be accepted. Got a freelance job as well but sadly, not as active due to COVID and only got a job when there's an update. 

So am I surviving right now? No. I feel dead. I self harmed yesterday and I guess I do more, I don't know.