I Was Forced to Grow up Fast.... and missing my 11 years of life.
Yeah, you've read the title right. As I'm typing this, I'm trying to remember what I fully communicated to my psychologist earlier. I told her that I feel that I am growing up too fast, or rather, being forced to grow up fast because of some circumstances or rather, a situation that brought me to such a decision. I'm 25, and I should be hanging around or rather, have the mental capacity of that age, slowly trying to adapt to adulthood. Instead, I have a mental brain capacity of someone in her mid-30s in the body of a 25-year-old. I told her that I couldn't recall, or rather, have a vivid memory of what my life is like. I don't know what enjoyment feels like. I stopped experiencing enjoyment, freedom and happiness with friends because I was forced to grow up faster at the age of 14. I dropped out of school, and my life has revolved around hospitals, appointments, and part-time jobs because going back to school terrifies me. "I envy people around my age beca...